Wednesday, March 21, 2012



Hal Pepinsky,,

March 21, 2012

I just returned from 10 days in a hospital recovering from a severe episode of delirium tremens out of town after I hadn’t had a drink for a day. I will never take so much as a taste of alcohol for the rest of my life. I have an insurance policy: I have made this declaration to so many people that to do so with a closing reputation as a bigtime hypocrite.

That said, I continue to assert as I did in class that there is no such thing as a good or bad substance. The problems lie in how they are ingested, and what happens as a result. That includes alcohol. I have had experiences with the drug ( e.g., I totaled a car in 1972, but I had many a happy time in bars at conferences. I know plenty of people who take only pleasure and health from alcohol and many other substances. My consumption of alcohol is my problem. I can enjoy the smell. I can have fun with others having as much fun and pleasure from their choices of beverage, serving them even, as ever. Alcohol has not become my enemy. Putting so much as a drop between my own lips is over. The taste never appealed to me anyway. I hate soda pop but will continue enjoying my tap water.

In my view I continue to live many substantially different lives in a single lifetime, from, from pre-pubescence living in six states and a foreign country by the time I got to college to a marriage that has lasted nearly 38 year to a citizen of Poland, Canada and now the US, to a crisis where I dad leisure in a hospital bed to see how much this old body sighs with gratitude when I my drinking is over. Thank you body for putting up me so long.

As many of you know, I am by profession a student of social control, and within that realm, concentrate on peacemaking--on how we try to build trust, safety and security in the face of war and violence. I reject the idea of social control as punishment or enforced obedience. If you want to down your guard with anyone you need to trust that s/he assumes responsibility for her or his own decisions rather doing as told. I could never abided AA or 12 steps or counting days and years of sobriety (and frankly hope to behave no more soberly than ever). I am sure this works wonderfully for many people but it is not for me. I wish we would stop using words like “recovery” as though it was always wrong for all of us and those who conceive of changing habits differently,

Feeling liberated means a lot to me. My blood pressure has dropped by 300 percent and I don’t have to worry that the drug will damage my liver. I will never get picked up for dui and can be a designated driver. I can sing on open mike night with as much fun at a coffee house as at a bar. I have been given a new life I have never enjoyed. And the chances are I will die having returned to my beautiful childhood home. How lucky is that!

I continue to reject opposition to alcohol and the imposition of treatment regimens. Love

Monday, March 19, 2012

Personal health report

Health report, 3/18/12

Hal Pepinsky,,

March 19, 2012

Many thanks to all who are asking. Pardon this one brief message to one and all. A lingering effect of a 10-day administration of many drugs in Greeley Hospital in Ames, Iowa is that I keep making typos; I’ll be brief. For starters, I’m back in Worthington.

To paraphrase Tecumseh, I will drink no more forever, just as I have not chosen to sip a coke or the like as far back as I can remember, and I never liked alcohol of any kind at first sip; I only wanted refills until I felt what a late friend called “a buzz.” So in my case there’s no incentive to try a sip of anything.

I am physically stronger (my bp dropped by 300 percent for example). Now I have baseline data from Ames, I will go and find a gp for the first time in 25 years to get a primary caregiver. I see myself as, like returning to Ohio, as enjoying one more a wonderful like in a lifetime.

I am not a joiner and will never count days and years of sobriety. In fact, in sobriety, I expect to be no less sober and probably as ever. Alcohol is not my enemy. My body has simply, plainly, that it has reached consumption, regardless of it often used to be. I stand by my criminal justice belief that is no such thing as a good or bad substance, only in how the substance is introduced into the body, Furthermore, no 2 bodies—even twins—are alike in all respects. Love and peace, and thank for the support